New guy in my life :)

So i am still fighting to get my roommate... She is a freaking idiot.. I don't have time to write about it this time. So I went on a date with this guy Scott from work about a month and a half ago. Amazing guy. Makes me laugh and happy. Well we have been busy and both have been broke. So a week ago Saturday i had money and he was at work and i saw him. So i thought to my self here we go. So i was gonna ask him on another date cause he talked to me more and what not since the date. So he was on lunch and in the process of going to get food. Well he was like i have been meaning to talk to you. But when i have had a chance you have been busy or been gone (home cause we don't work at the same time). I have been wanting to ask you on a date but i have been sick and broke. I was like that's okay.I have been wanting to ask you to. But i have been the same way. So long story short, we set up to go out Wednesday night. So he came a little before 5 pm to pick me up. We got lost going down to Salt Lake to have dinner. So it took us an hour to get to the place instead of 20 min. ha ha ha! So we got there and went to a Italian restraunt. It was really good. Then we went over and got our tickets for the James Bond movie. We had about 25 min before the movie started. So we walked around the gateway till it almost started. Then we headed back to my place and laid on my bed and talked till almost 2 am. Then he went home. It was a good date. He makes me happy and i enjoy spending my time with him. I am taking it slow and not rushing things.

So when we went into the Italian Restaunt, the girl at the counter looked familiar. So she asked us how many there was of us. We said 2. So we stood there for a second and she looked up and looked down then looks up and says i know you, dont i?! I was like yeah! I was about to say the same thing. haha ha! So long story short. I knew her when i lived in California. She just moved out here with her husbnad that she just married 2 months ago. It was weird!

Christmas is this week. I am excited. My brother, Kijl, and his wife and baby are coming to town. They are flying in Tuesday night and leaving Sunday night. So that will be alot of fun. I still have a few more things to get. So hopefully i can get to it. But other then that i am excited. I don't have plans for new years yet. Maybe Scott and i will do something. But i wont hold my breath on that. My little brother, Spenser, will be home February 5th. He flies in at i think 6:35 pm. YIPPIE! i am excited! I cant wait for him to come. I miss my little brother. It will also be nice to see everyone to.

Roommate Evicted!

So I am going home tonight to tell my roommate that she has till the 1st to be out by. She has been an idiot and stupid. Last night she broke her door and her door jam. I have the new lease with only my name on it. So she can't say that i cant tell her to be out by the 1st. She has had her boyfriend live there and not pay rent cause she is afraid to be there alone with me. Which is crap. I have put up with enough of her crap. So i am done. She is using the excuse that the place that she is looking at will accept her but she cant take her cat. Well, if she leaves the cat, the cat will go to the pound or out on the streets. Cause 1 its ugly and 2 i don't want a cat. She hasn't gone out and look for another place. She wont come talk to me. She will text me or leave me notes. Thats it. Or wait go through my mom. She made the excuse that i make alot of noise when she sleeps during the day. Sorry i am not going to be quiet when i am home during the day. Not my fault you chose to work nights. And have to sleep 12 hours (Which is another lie). And that i cant talk to her face to face. I have to text her or leave her a note. Cause she cant leave spending the 24 hours a day/7 days a week (basically) with her boyfriend. But i will go out with friends and she will call me 90 million times and want to talk to me. Sorry. I am not gonna run home at her convience and talk to her. My mom said that i dont have to do anything. I will talk to her face to face not through text or leaving notes on her door. I will let you know what happens tonight with her. Leave a comment! If she is not out by the first. i will call the police and she will be trespassing. Good thing i dont work on the first. ha ha ha! Sucker!

Kevin is back... He has been on vacation for the last week and a half... I am happy he is back... But it also frustrates me at the same time. Before he left on his vacation... He was trying to get back with me and make things better and what not... I am just done... I cant do it any more... So this morning i saw him... But i had a lot to do... So after the daily meeting we have as a store i went and cleaned up the mess i had made... Then went up to MC Donald's to get breakfast like i always do...Well Kevin, Danielle (the girl i hate and the one that likes him with the 4 kids), and Nate (someone we work with) were all in front of me ordering their food... They were taking for ever so i sat down at the table behind me... Well Pam and Brenda were sitting a couple tables over and they were making comments... So when Kevin, Danielle, and Nate were done i ordered and sat at the table and Kevin came over and said hello then went and sat with Danielle and Nate...I got my food and got my drink and went and sat with Pam and Brenda... Then after a little while i had to take up to the front to where Kevin was working and he was like are you okay... you are quiet... I was like i am fine.. then he said are you sure... I was like yes. I just have stuff bothering me... Then he goes on to tell me that i can talk to him when ever i want to... I was like yeah... that will be never since you wont even give me the time of day to talk to you... You are always with Danielle... i said as i walked away... I know that if i give him another chance that i know it will be a repeat of what has already happen... I don't even want to go through that again and i think its stupid... Oh well... I needed to vent... Post what you think i should do...

Life

So I finally moved out on my own about a month and a half ago... I have one roommate and i live closer to work... I can see the back of my work from my door step... Takes 6 min to walk to work... Its definitely something to get used to.. I am enjoying living with my roommate... I do miss seeing the guy on the bus that i thought was cute... I do take the chance every so often to go see him... But i would rather sleep then go on the bus... he he he... cheaper to... I am still working at Wal Mart.. It was okay... I went to Vegas a couple weeks ago to get away for the weekend and see friends... It was nice to see people i haven't seen in a couple years... One of our friends got home from his mission... SO i got to see him fresh off the mission... Plus his family... I left here early Friday morning and came home late Sunday night...I went and hung out with my sister in law and nephew for a little bit Friday during the day... Then Friday afternoon I went out to my friends' Alyssa and Tim's place and hung out with them and caught up... That was a lot of fun... Then i went and hung out with my friend Felica and her boyfriend and we went to the car show... that was a lot of fun...

Then Saturday i hug out at my sisters which was boring... I don't get along with my sister... So by the time i left she had kicked me out... long story... So i took my stuff with me and went out to the friends house and they had a party for him... It was weird to see every one... But it was nice to see them and catch up... then i went to my hotel room that i got... I had 2 queen size beds to my self and the whole room to my self... So nice. I froze cause i had the ac on to 65 degrees but the blankets kept me warm... So it ran all night cause it was hot there...

then i got up Sunday and showered and got ready to go... My friend met up with me at the hotel and we went to the strip and walked some of it... that was fun... But we got to not feeling good... So i went back to my brother and sister in laws house and hung out with them till i went to the airport... I got back to my place at 1 am... And got ready for bed and went to work the net morning at 7 am... I was exhausted...

Other then that, I have been working a lot and going on a couple dates here and there and getting used too living on my own... It has been fun... I am not dating any one... I like 2 guys at work... But i don't think anything will happen with either... I did set myself up on a blind date with one of them... don't ask... We haven't set the date up yet... So I don't know when it will happen... The other guy i don't think i will ever tell.. He is a good guy but i am too chicken to tell him...

There is Kevin that i started to like and things started to happen.. But he ended up being stupid... He basically just wanted some action... I found out today that he has a crush on this girl and this girl like him but she has a boyfriend and 3 or 4 kids... And he doesn't want to get into that type of situation... But don't know... We went out and he never wanted to make a commitment... He started to barely talk to me and when i was around he was mean to me... he spent more time with the girl then me...and he kept telling me that nothing is going on... Its dumb... I have moved on.. He told me that he wants to try it all over again and hang out and get to know each other but he wont talk to me or hang out... He makes excuses... then he tells my friend that i never wanted to get serious... I told him several times... But sorry i am not gonna start to run after you when you have told me that you want to take time and you aren't even around me... Yeah.. Oh well... I will stop complaining about him...

All my family is good... My nephew just turned 3 on the 5Th of October...My little brother has 3 1/2 months left... YEA! I am so excited... My mom went to Vegas to visit 2 weeks after i got home... I have been dog sitting for the a lot... My dad went to Thailand for work for 8 days... My parents went with my dads work to Mexico for a week.. they are doing a lot of traveling with my dads work... I think that's all the excitement... I am gonna try to start dating more and working hard at getting my licence... And blogging more... Hopefully Sunday will be my first time to my new ward... new people... new boys... new friends... hopefully a good way to start things... I am excited...

Dedicated to my grandma

So since i last updated a lot has happened... Well after the whole episode with Albertson's that next Monday, i got a call for an interview at Wal Mart the next day... So i went in and they offered me a job and i took it... So i went in the next day and told my boss i was finishing off the week and i would be done... She basically told me i couldn't because she needed me the next week to train people... I told her i couldn't... Cause Wal Mart wanted me to start on Monday (which was a lie)... So i had 40 hours my last week at Albertsons and people gave me a bunch of grief... I was happy to get out of that place... So i enjoyed a week off and had orientation... And started a couple days later and been there ever since... Its been a nice change from Albertson's... I stock shelves or what ever they need me to do...

Then i left on the Tuesday to head up to California for a couple days... It was a nice get away. I hung out with friends and caught up on sleep. It was nice... I miss California and everyone out there... While i was there my moms mom passed away on the Thursday night... Which i will talk more about in a min... I went to church and saw the people in my ward and ran into people i haven't seen in a while since they went on their mission...

My family has been stressing over my grandma she was in and out of the hospital... They couldn't figure out why she had fallen and she had this infection that she got in her arm that they didn't know where it came from... So they took her up to a hospital in Provo and did tests and what not. She got worse so they sent her up to the University of Utah hospital...Where she later passed away... They still don't really know what was going on... But the day before she died and the day she died she told my moms oldest brother that she didn't want to have surgery and didn't want to have any more surgeries... Or anything more done... She was basically saying that she was ready to go... So my mom and her brothers and my cousin were at the hospital and visiting hours were over and my moms brothers left and my cousin decided to go back at 8:30pm when the next shift started. She sat and chatted with my grandma till 10:45 pm when they were gonna get her ready for bed and change her sheets. So my cousin left... My moms oldest brother got a phone call a little after 11 pm telling him that my grandma wasn't doing well and she had min to live before she passed and if they wanted to be with her to come immediately... No one did... So they got a phone call about 11:20 pm. saying that she had passed away... They started making funeral arrangements and asked me if i would like to speak. Of course i did. I didn't have the chance to at my grandpa's funeral... So i spent the next couple days writing and thinking about what i wanted to speak of at the funeral. So i left Sacramento Tuesday morning and flew into Vegas. My sister in law and nephew picked me up. We went to lunch and picked some stuff up at the house. Then picked up my brother and headed up to my grandmas house. We spent the night fussing and fighting over stuff we wanted. Then we all got up the next morning and got ready for the funeral. The rest of the family came and friends and family. It was beautiful. We had sloppy Joe's, lots of desserts, salad and what not for the luncheon after. Most of the grand kids were there... I think there was 3 out of the 10 great grand kids there. It was nice to see all my moms side of the family. But i see why we never get together... We all fight and bicker.... We basically cleaned out the house and took what we wanted then my aunt and uncle were gonna hold a garage sale for the rest... Its hard to think that my grandma is not here any more... I am just happy that she is in a better place and that she is with my grandpa... My sister and my "brother-in-law", my brother and sister in law and nephew, me an my parents. We had a nice time... It was nice to see them all.. My sister and brother in law's dog is cute.. They named her Bella. She is a golden retriever i think...

My grandma left behind 2 brothers and 1 sister. 5 sons and 1 daughter. 22 grand kids and 10 great grandkids with one on the way... She was proceeded in death by my grandpa and her son, Gardell. She lived 5 years 1 month and 2 weeks after my grandpa died. My grandpa died June 10, 2003. And my grandma died July 24, 2008.

I broke things completely off with Aaron. We aren't getting married right now. Maybe down the road sometime. We just have things that we need to work on and things we need to change... So hopefully maybe we will some day... Just not right now... I have been going on some dates... But the guys have been stupid and don't know how to do things right... they say they have a good time but then things change... So its been hard to concentrate. I have basically just been working and trying to keep busy. My friend Celeste left on her mission two weeks ago. She is going to Taipan on her mission... I am happy for her... then my neighbor Maddie is leaving in i think 2 weeks for her mission... She is going to Canada...We will see what happens in the next little while...

Update..... Really long!

Lately has been a whorl wind (sp). I have mostly been working. Patty has been really stupid and since things are changing at work, she is taking it out all on me and she won't confront other people. I will get over time for the stuff she leaves me and i get written up for it. Its not my fault that i can't get the stuff done and she doesn't have enough hands back there. So last week my grandma fell (will get into that later in the blog) and i went in Wednesday before work to talk to her about me going down to help as a family emergency. I told her i didn't know when i was leaving or when i was coming back. So she said to let her know. So i talk to the store manager before he left and i told him i could be gone a couple days or i could be gone a week or so. He said to let him know. So i got home Wednesday night and found out that i was heading down to take care of my grandma the next day. So i packed and got ready to go. So bright and early Thursday morning we (my mom and i) loaded up and got on the road. So i called my boss to let her know i was leaving and didn't know when i would be back. She tells me, "well i guess you are done with albertson's." I was like, "No that's not what i just said. I have a family emergency that i need to take care of. And there is no time limit." Then she continues on to say, "well since you aren't gonna be here for the holiday next week you are basically leaving." I was like, "No i talked to Kent (store manager) and he said to let him know whats going on." So we hang up and she goes to talk to him and they call me back. She tells me that i told Kent that i told Patty that i was gonna be gone two days. (BTW, HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW HOW LONG I AM GONNA BE GONE? I CANT GIVE YOU TIME.) I tell her no i said to him i could be gone a couple days or i could be gone a week. So Kent gets on the phone and tells me that i told him that i would be gone 2 days. I corrected him and he didn't want to listen. So i was like what ever. So he said to work it out with patty. So long story short. I had to be back by Sunday to work this week. Which we ended up getting down there and ended up finding out that she isn't getting out for another week or so. So i came home and i worked all day Friday.

So Patty had talked to one of the girls (Michelle) about working my Saturday shift. Which i was fine with. So Friday night, Michelle comes into get her schedule for this week. I said hey whats up and that's it. and gave her the schedule. So i took the french bread out and i went back and she had written a note saying that she couldn't work Saturday cause she had to be somewhere in Salt Lake City at 5:30 pm. So I saw it but i didn't act on it. I get a call the next morning from patty saying that Michelle had said she couldn't work and that I needed to work my shift. So come to find out Michelle told Patty that she had talked to me about it and told me i had to work my shift. Which is b.s. cause she never said anything about me having to work on Saturday. Well i played dumb and acted like i left my phone at home Friday night and went to Clinton to baby sit for a couple i baby sit for every once in a while. So i played hockey and hung out with people in my singles ward most of the day Saturday. The new girl Terry had to work all day long and she basically got no help. So Michelle had until Monday by 2 pm to come into the store and talk to Kent. Well she never did and she got fired. So we are down to 6 people. One person only works on Saturday and is only a cake lady . and one only works like 2 days a week and also is only a cake lady.

So Monday while i was at work i got a phone call from Wal Mart asking if i was till looking for a position. So i called the lady back and got set up for an interview today. So i went in today and had 2 interviews and basically got hired. So i am thinking that i am gonna finish off the week at albertson's (maybe) then start at Wal mart next week. I should know by tomorrow night if i got the job or not. Darn drug and back ground checks... hehehe! But i will be working 7-4 every day i guess. Which will be nice. I can still go to stuff at night and i wont have to go home and shower after i have worked all day. I am gonna get 8.40 an hour. Which is 42 cents more then i am getting now. Which is not bad. They (Albertson's) asked for a food handlers permit and i haven't got it. So i have till tomorrow before i work to get it. Which i am not. Its pointless to get it when i am leaving. So tomorrow might be my last day at Albertsons'. YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So i am so happy about that. That means i don't have to work 3 9's in a row and Patty is screwed. Cause she is gonna have to mess up someone schedule or something cause i am not there any more. Darn! She cant use and abuse me any more. What a shame.

I have been trying to get back into hanging out with people. Which is not solving anything. I am just making myself miserable then i am already. I have decided after tonight that i am gonna back off again and just work and not go to anything as usual. I Have been liking a couple guys. Thought they would be good guys and maybe a chance to date. When after hanging out one time they don't think i am their type when we had no interaction really. So i am just frustrated about somethings with boys. They don't seem to understand my frustration that how can you know. I have tried to ask boys on dates and tried to hang out with people. But all it seems to be is that it goes no where. I think i just need to move away from this place. I had good times. But i am just not happy anymore being here. I wanted to come home tonight and just cry. I wasn't feeling good. And boys were being stupid as usual. I just had no one to talk to and everyone that i did was ignoring me or i just didn't want to bother them. I mean i have had a good time with some of the people that i have hung out with. But Its just not the same. I like this guy Brett. He seems to like me. We want to get to know one another. But it doesn't seem like he is trying to make an effort. He does talk to me a little and says hi and waves. Like tonight i was out looking for someone and he saw me and he waved to me. But that was it. I would love to be just one on one with him but it doesn't seem to ever work. So i am like what ever. I have kinda stop trying to date now. I just need some time to work on somethings and get my life going in the right direction. I don't need a boyfriend right now.

I am excited. I am going to California in a couple weeks. I will be there July 22-30. Then i am gonna be in Vegas visiting my brother and sister in law and nephew and also my sister till the third of August. I am so excited to get away. I really need a vacation and just relax. I am stressed about to many things. And i cant wait to see everyone out in Cali. People have got married and some have had kids. So i am excited to see every one. :D I wish it was sooner then it is. 20 days! But i might have to change it now since i have a new job. They might not let me take 12 days off right after i start.But i will talk to them about that tomorrow. I miss everyone out there. I miss tressie and Kim tafua and having our girl talks on Sundays in nursery.

Well i am going to bed. I got to get up early and do laundry and go to work... ALL DAY LONG! 11 am-8pm. But lets see if i actually work. :D I cant wait to start Wal Mart. I will be so much happier not working at Albertson's and all the drama that goes on there any more. :)

Well its official. I am single. When Aaron came out a couple weeks ago, i noticed that i am just not happy anymore. And just was did not feel the same way. So after a couple weeks of thinking about things and what not.... I broke it off. He got in Friday night and we went to a movie and dinner. Then came home and went to bed. Saturday morning, i had to work. So while i worked 9-2. Then i went home and showered. then we left and went to target and dinner. Then went home and got ready to go. We went to my cousins' reception. that was fun to see her and her family. My cousin came up from south salt lake. We got home and changed and hung out. Then Sunday we got up and i made german pancakes for breakfast. then got ready to go. We went to a big animal adoption thing in Salt lake. that was fun. I found a dog i wanted. But i was like lets go look around. So we went and looked at other dogs and cats they had their. I did not find any. So we went back to get the dog and head home. Well as we walked up we saw a couple walking away with the dog. they had adopted her while we were walking around. So we did not get a dog. then went to a restraunt on the way home. Then got home and watched a movie and went to bed. He left monday morning about 5 am.

2 weeks ago i decided to tell this guy at work that i like him. Yes i know big mistake. So my friend, Autumn, told him for me. Cause i did not want to. So she went and told him and i went home Cause i was off. then i went back later to pick up some stuff and we talked for like 45 min. So we set the date to be for the next saturday. Cause he worked late or i was busy. then i was going on vacation for 4 days. So i got back thursday night and i asked him if he wanted to go out. He said sure. So we went and saw Iron Man. It was good. Nothing happend. But like i have told everyone else, i was not expecting anything to happen. So i worked all day friday and got off at 4 pm. Well he got on the clock at 4 pm. I went to talk to him. Well he said a whole 4 words to me. And that was it. I was like what ever and i left. he still hasnt talked to me. So i am not happy with him. So Saturday nigh after i worked all day, i went to my wards singles' pool party. Courtney picked me up and me her and her brother went down to the pool. I swam around and chatted with people. towards the end Sean, Jason, and Josh came over and we were talking. Then i was giving josh a massage. It was nice to get one. Then everyone started getting out and me, lisa and josh stayed in as long as we could to messing around and what not. then lisa, josh and i went to jakes' to get ice cream and went home.

I still have my lame job. They are remodeling the whole store. So its a mess and they are changing the way they do things. Its annoying. Oh well. I am just holding off till i can hopefully get a job with my mom at the bank. But other then that nothing is new. I might have some news on Father's day. But that is it. We are waiting to hear. I will update this more as more happens. Feel free to comment.

today was long.

I had to work 11 am to 7 pm. But i got off at 8 pm. Oh well. I had to deal with my manager today. I like the fact that she just assumes that i am not doing anything and says oh your closing tomorrow. I was so mad. Cause its stupid. I had to work all day today. All day tomorrow now. And all day Sunday. I so need a new job. I am sick of this. I also had to deal with Jeff today. Which i see is just getting worse and worse by the day. I just wish that i could get over him and not like him at all. It frustrates me. I ran into Jason again. I think i have fallen for him but i am too chicken to show that i am interested. We do flirt allot. I have had customers and co workers ask if we are dating or a couple or something going on. I just tell them no.So we will see how things go in the future. Hopefully i will have a new job before anything happens
Aaron is coming out in 2 weeks to see me. I am excited. My cousin on my moms' side is getting married. So i wanted someone to go with to that. Rather then being the single one as usual going to stuff. It will be a nice weekend. My moms' mom might be staying with us. So that should be interesting but at the same time annoying. She wants things her way and wants them done right then not when we get to it. It gets old after a while. But we will play card games allot that weekend. Hopefully, she wont drive me nuts like she usually does. Oh well. Then my cousin Allen, is going on his mission in may. That will be fun to see. His brother, Russell, will be home in June. Which sucks. I wanted him to be home for memorial weekend. My dads' side of the family is going up to a cabin for that weekend. I am gonna be the only one really that is an adult that is not married. my other cousins are all under like 14 or something. JOY! Maybe i can get Jason to go with me that weekend. Ha! yeah right. I think he is afraid of me even though he likes me.
I am looking into getting a kitty. But i should wait. Cause Maggie (our dog) has never been around cats. And i don't want to get the cat hurt. But we can always change Maggie some how. We will see. My dad doesn't like cats. I want to get a cat to keep me company down stairs since Maggie sleeps with my mom. My parents sleep upstairs and i am on the main floor. So it gets lonely at night or just need the company of someone being with me at night and not so quiet.
I am living in Utah. I hate it here. I go to a singles ward rather then a family ward. But when i go to the singles ward i feel left out. No one talks to me. No one invites me to do stuff with the people that are doing stuff. I always here about things right before it happens. And i cant go because no one tells me. I have lived here since last June and i feel like i am nothing to this ward. I mean people talk to me but in the middle of the conversation they will just walk away and go talk to someone else. I have not gone on any dates with anyone. Except the guys from different wards. Its stupid. I just feel like every day i am falling farther and farther away from the church and don't want to go back like my older brother and sister did. Oh well. I am trying to keep my head high and not let these people get to me. I want to move back to California where i liked family wards and hung out with people and enjoyed sometimes being at home. I miss all my friends in California. I miss going to institute there. And all the things they do differently from here.
I think its about time to close this out. Just putting my thoughts on here of what i am thinking since i don't really have anyone to talk to. I have no friends. No one to hang out with as usual. Oh well.