today was long.

I had to work 11 am to 7 pm. But i got off at 8 pm. Oh well. I had to deal with my manager today. I like the fact that she just assumes that i am not doing anything and says oh your closing tomorrow. I was so mad. Cause its stupid. I had to work all day today. All day tomorrow now. And all day Sunday. I so need a new job. I am sick of this. I also had to deal with Jeff today. Which i see is just getting worse and worse by the day. I just wish that i could get over him and not like him at all. It frustrates me. I ran into Jason again. I think i have fallen for him but i am too chicken to show that i am interested. We do flirt allot. I have had customers and co workers ask if we are dating or a couple or something going on. I just tell them no.So we will see how things go in the future. Hopefully i will have a new job before anything happens
Aaron is coming out in 2 weeks to see me. I am excited. My cousin on my moms' side is getting married. So i wanted someone to go with to that. Rather then being the single one as usual going to stuff. It will be a nice weekend. My moms' mom might be staying with us. So that should be interesting but at the same time annoying. She wants things her way and wants them done right then not when we get to it. It gets old after a while. But we will play card games allot that weekend. Hopefully, she wont drive me nuts like she usually does. Oh well. Then my cousin Allen, is going on his mission in may. That will be fun to see. His brother, Russell, will be home in June. Which sucks. I wanted him to be home for memorial weekend. My dads' side of the family is going up to a cabin for that weekend. I am gonna be the only one really that is an adult that is not married. my other cousins are all under like 14 or something. JOY! Maybe i can get Jason to go with me that weekend. Ha! yeah right. I think he is afraid of me even though he likes me.
I am looking into getting a kitty. But i should wait. Cause Maggie (our dog) has never been around cats. And i don't want to get the cat hurt. But we can always change Maggie some how. We will see. My dad doesn't like cats. I want to get a cat to keep me company down stairs since Maggie sleeps with my mom. My parents sleep upstairs and i am on the main floor. So it gets lonely at night or just need the company of someone being with me at night and not so quiet.
I am living in Utah. I hate it here. I go to a singles ward rather then a family ward. But when i go to the singles ward i feel left out. No one talks to me. No one invites me to do stuff with the people that are doing stuff. I always here about things right before it happens. And i cant go because no one tells me. I have lived here since last June and i feel like i am nothing to this ward. I mean people talk to me but in the middle of the conversation they will just walk away and go talk to someone else. I have not gone on any dates with anyone. Except the guys from different wards. Its stupid. I just feel like every day i am falling farther and farther away from the church and don't want to go back like my older brother and sister did. Oh well. I am trying to keep my head high and not let these people get to me. I want to move back to California where i liked family wards and hung out with people and enjoyed sometimes being at home. I miss all my friends in California. I miss going to institute there. And all the things they do differently from here.
I think its about time to close this out. Just putting my thoughts on here of what i am thinking since i don't really have anyone to talk to. I have no friends. No one to hang out with as usual. Oh well.